I dont want to love you anymore!

Sometimes she wonders to herself how much is enough to don a real time role?

Here she is trying to be the bestest wife on earth but when the other person just takes her for granted, that is when such a question arise. She knew in many case between a couple, things don’t vibe well but still one hopes that things may get better but fact is that never happens.

The biggest mistake of her life was her current second pregnancy…really that was the biggest mistake because only during this pregnancy did she saw the true colors of her selfish husband. He used to be a good husband but off late she realized that he is good when things are good…when things get sour around him, instead of solving that issue he runs away and looks at other ways to entertain himself. Thank God atleast during this pregnancy she finally saw this face of his!
Now its too late and she cannot abort this child but yes one thing is for sure, atleast now she understands her priorities of life and has genuinely sorted them out. I don’t think she being an emotional person would share her innermost feelings with him anywhere. She would respect him as a father and thats where this relationship would takes a full stop. This also doesn’t mean that she is looking to flirt or find love. She is going to get into grass root level services. Yes she does need capital, but once she is done with the delivery and the child becomes nine months old, she has decided to get into full-fledged professional life and this time she will have her own savings. She was a fool , from day 1 of her career, she had always given her pay check to her husband…biggest foolish stuff a wife should do…especially for a person who had married her for just being a convenient wife…love must have been the last reason!

Now she analyzes his circle of friends. She understands he is emotionally attached especially to his best friend Namitha, its very obvious that he has a huge crush on her, though Namitha would never accept him as Namitha loves money more than anything else…She never liked Namitha and always found her arrogant, the biggest mistake she though was trying to make friendship with her…She hates Namitha..To her Namitha will always be a no-one and I genuinely don’t like her too!
The worst part is that she had lost everything in this marriage, whatever gold her parents had provided, her career…She was flourishing in my career when he got his Mumbai break...She should have never agreed but being an emotional fool she agreed and was happy for his career. But today when he is doing better he has also shown me his true picture. He has never appreciated her, oh yes he does it at times but that’s his diplomatic nature, he is never genuine about it.

Only thing he does is to be very good to her relatives, again he is not genuine about it. He loves his mother more than anyone else in this world and when there were issues between both of them he obviously like a coward (which he is) stayed away and in his heart supported his mother and hated her.During those times, she was pregnant.
Sadly in this pregnancy he has always given her unhappiness on a daily basis. Not a day when she has not cried, in fact she has never cried so much in her entire life. She is so tired of being sad. He says that she has changed and don’t pamper him….has he ever thought why doesn’t she pamper him?
Suddenly he feels that he has got a cook for her, is consulting her in the best hospital, and have also allowed her to take a break in career then why can’t she just blindly love him. Fact is all this he is doing is to just show off himself in his group of people. A person who is so much concerned would first and foremost keep his wife emotionally happy and not stay away from her. His meetings get over by max 6 pm but he stills comes home late…well he does enjoy his female colleagues company more, though honestly he would never accept that because of his diplomatic nature…..Sometimes she wonders to herself whether she loves him maybe she respects him as he is father to her children but as a husband this is what she feels, ”I don’t want to love you anymore”

The daughter-in-law

The daughter in law was angry, sad and frustrated. Was she sad about her marriage? Well no one would believe her as Rahul was the most ideal man in the world. He was a wonderful father, son, son-in-law,brother, brother-in-law,colleague,friend and had to be the best husband. Was he? She was confused, even though all other characters were played by him very well, she had her doubts on the last character.

She had met him 10 years back through an internet site, did she make a hasty decision. They had a wonderful son but was he the one because of whom they are unknowingly carrying on with institution of marriage?

The  daughter-in-law  was smart, beautiful and good natured . She was good at her professional and personal life an was also earning as much as Rahul. So then why are such characters taken for granted?

It was  a small incident, maybe something which could be ignored, but aren’t these small things or moles which make up the mountain?

It was not a great day, just a mixed up day...days which makes you happy and sad silently.

She was alone today with the servant  as everyone in the house had gone for a wedding. As usual, she made an excuse as she hated attending weddings, a place where she thought people were anything but genuine!

She spoke to the servant of the house, the lady had brought mushrooms, fresh mushrooms, but there were black spots in it. She asked her if they were spoilt, but the lady mentioned that in these parts they got such mushrooms, which were spotted.The lady went further saying that she got it from her friends place.Daughter-in-law was happy, as today dinner would be mushroom,she was bored of the potatoes served on a daily basis.

The family came back late evening. Finally dinner was served.It was again Chappatti and potatoes. She started having and suddenly she remembered mushrooms  and could not find them. So she searched for mushrooms, she thought maybe they were cut into very small pieces alongwith the potatoes sabzi.But she could not find them, so she asked the servant casually, where are the mushrooms? The lady replied, what mushrooms?I dont know what are you saying, we never buy mushrooms, she again asked her as she remembered their conversation every clearly but the lady had the same answer. Rahul got irritated and angry and shouted at his wife,”If the lady says it isnt there, then its not there”Why are you behind some mushrooms?
The daughter-in-law replied, “Rahul, I had a full fledged conversation on Mushrooms with her”. Rahul shouted back, “Can you keep quiet, maybe you mistook it for something else, afterall its just Mushrooms”.Everyone supported Rahul, as they needed the servant. Getting a servant was difficult in that part of town.

Is this something one should ignore. The question here is not of Mushrooms, that was an excuse. But is this the way a husband should treat his wife.Is this an incident which should be ingnored casually? Was Rahul  mean ? When a girl leaves her parents place and accepts the husbands place as her own, doesnt she deserve some respect? What went wrong here?She was being honest, isn’t honesty the best policy?She had always trusted Rahul, but is she doing the right thing, doesnt such an incident show that he is just not bothered of her integrity.What about the family, even they showed that servant was more important to them!